What on earth am I here for?

If I come without a thing, then I come with all I need

2010-06-22T05:34:00.000-07:00

On Sunday Matt Chandler said that if you want a beating of biblical proportion you should read 1 John, and he wasn't kidding! It's pretty much this is how it is and if you aren't like this, then you are sinning and are of the devil! WHOA!!! crazy! (yes that was a joey from Blossom whoa!) It's crazy that so many people call themselves christians, but don't follow a word in 1 John, like seriously almost live completely opposite. 1 John 1:15 Do not love the world, or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. I mean that right there, is CRAZY! So I know that everyone has struggled with that, I mean how can you not? From the time you are born, there are people telling you to grow up, finish school, go to college, get a good job and a house, have a family and make money and have nice cars, and a nice house and so on. That's what is instilled in all of us as we grow up, and if someone does something differently its like they are shunned. But really in order to follow God and be a christian, we need to do almost the exact opposite of this. 1 John 1: 6 Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did. So did Jesus have this crazy expensive education? Did he get a high paying job? Did he get married and have a family? Did he have a nice house and car? No! Jesus spent his life walking with the sick and poor and helping them. He was beaten and then hung on the cross to die, all before he was 35. I mean you think about a life like that, and how he was listening to the preachers at the temple when he was 12 and everyone was so amazed at how well he understood everything. I know that when I was 12 I wasn't learning and understanding the Bible, I was playing basketball and hanging out with my friends.
I think this call to walk as Jesus did, is something that I have been searching for, and really running after this last year. We really are trying to downsize our lives, and live simply and help people out. The only way to be able to help other people, is to get rid of the distractions in your life. I am beginning to feel as though I am spiritually being held back in my current life situation. I know that sounds weird, but I am really not helping anyone the way I feel I should. I work retail, and while I love my job, and enjoy working with people, I am not helping them the way I feel I should be. I think I was put on this earth to listen and help people out to my fullest, and I do that sometimes at work, but it's hard to do that in that kind of setting. I feel that I would be much more fulfilled if I was teaching and helping people learn. I think by giving yourself to people and performing selfless acts, the walking like Jesus is more attainable. I really want to learn and be more of an expert when it comes to the bible, so that I can really understand and help people see the LOVE that Jesus has for us and how it can turn your life around. God is the light; and in him there is no darkness. I want to show that light! I want people to know that I am in God and will give up everything I have to follow him and to show the world who he is. Not just by shoving the word down their throats, but by lending a helping hand, giving them food, teaching them how to read so that they are able to read the bible. Showing them how it has changed my life and helping them change theirs. I have a deep desire to do these things, and sometimes I feel held back by my own insecurities and my lack of confidence. There have been a lot of opportunities for me to step out of my box and help out, but I am always reluctant to do so, because I am scared of what someone may think or worried I may make someone upset. But then I think about it, and Jesus didn't worry about that. He was who he was, and he didn't make excuses and he showed his love everyday.
So often when I write I am reminded of mewithoutYou lyrics, which are so amazing if you actually listen to the message. In the song In a Sweater Poorly Nit there is a line that says "If I come without a thing, then I come with all I need." I want to do that, drop everything to follow and be fulfilled by the light and love of God. So with all that being said, 1 John makes you think!

The book of Haggai

2010-06-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

I am up super early for a sunday, but that is because I am going to breakfast with some of my friends before the 9 o'clock service at the village. The only thing that would make this morning better is if my husband didn't have to work and could go with. So I am up extra early, seeing as how I don't have to leave for another 35 minutes, so I decided to do a little quiet time before I went. I actually just opened my bible to a random place and it landed on the book of Haggai.
The whole book is about the prophet Haggai and his people who focused so much on their own houses and wealth that they totally ignored God's house. Since they did this, God was stern with them, and all that they produced was cut in half, they ate but were not full, they drank but were not satisfied, they clothed themselves but were not warm and they made money to put into purses with holes in them. I think thats such a great way of putting things, because God did not let them get fulfilled, because he was not being fulfilled by them. It just goes to show that if God is put first in our lives, then we will always be fulfilled. There may be hard times and there may be extremely low times, but God will always be there, and all we have to do is turn to him, and he will help us. This is something that I have really been trying to do lately, because I feel the pull from God to do so. I want to be a better person and live a more Christ filled life, and I think the only way to do that would be to focus on God and have a daily in depth relationship with him. I don't want to be one of those people that other people dread talking to, because they are too churchy I want to be someone who can speak to people about God and not turn them off of him. I want to be real with them, and help them live a good life. I think a lot of the times churches come off as pushy and even impersonal, and I think they lose a lot of people because of that. There are always those little clicks that happen in churches, and whenever you are a teenager, and aren't in those clicks, it can be really hard on you. It makes you turn away from the church for reasons that should never be. I don't want to be like that towards people, I just want to help them out with what I can and show them Christ's love through my actions.
If you think about it, that's what Jesus did. You didn't see him avoiding the unclean or making sure he saved people by entertaining them. He was real with people and helped out people and hung around the poor and unclean people. If you shield yourself from all of the wrong in the world and shield yourself from the poor or the lost, then there is no point in being a christian. God asked us to live lives just like Jesus did, not sit in our nice house with our nice cars and clothing and be shielded away from the poor. I don't ever want to be someone who sits in their nice house and forgets about everyone suffering in the world. I want to walk with the poor and help them, I want to reach those people in need and give my life for them. You often think of Mother Teresa who worked with leprosy her whole life, she didn't have to do that, but she was called by God to do so. I want to live a life like that, because she truly relied on God, and was never hungry, thirsty or unclothed. He made sure she was fulfilled everyday, because He was fulfilled by her.
So I want to live a life guided by Haggai 1: 3-6: Now this is what the Lord Almighty says:"Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it."

Beasts that perish

2010-06-18T07:46:00.000-07:00

So as we are beginning to move, we are trying to downsize our lives and keep the basic things that we need. There are a lot of "things" that are in our apartment, that I don't really know why we have or why we have acquired them over the years. I am ready to clean out my life and clear my mind. With all that being said, it has been a back and forth struggle between us over our tv. We are trying to decide if we want to keep it our sell it. Which I know what you are thinking, what on earth would you do without a tv. Haha, and that's exactly what I am thinking. But then when I really start digging down and thinking about it, there are so many things you can do if you aren't wasting your time watching tv.

1. Read
2. Go for a walk
3. Spend time with friends
4. Write
5. Focus on painting or artistic things
6. Cook
7. Exercise
8. Listen to music

So you get the picture, there are a lot of things I can do without a tv and I think once the burden is gone of a tv, I think I would flourish as a person. I also think it would help me spend more time with God and more time focusing on helping people and forming lasting friendships with people. I think it's just the scary part of not having a tv that makes me hesitate.

The biggest thing that we are doing now, is waiting on the next step of our life, and where we will go come this August. I have applied for as many schools as I can, and now I am just waiting on the call. So we are fully relying on God to take us where he wants, and place me in a school. So please be praying for that and praying that I do not get impatient, but rely on him and know that He will provide.

I will leave you with a little verse from Psalm 49:14-16
Like sheep they are destined for the grave, and death will feed on them. The upright rule over them in the morning; their forms decay in the grave, far from their princely mansions. But God will redeem my life from the grave; he will surely take me to himself. Do not be overawed when a man grows rich when the splendor of his house increases, for he will take nothing with him when he dies, his splendor will not descend with him.

excited to be alive!

2010-06-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

Luke 18:22-25
When Jesus heard his answer, he said "There is still one thing you haven't done. Sell all your possessions and give the money to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." But when the man heard this he became very sad, for he was very rich. When Jesus saw this, he said, "How hard it is for the rich to enter the Kingdom of God! In fact it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the Kingdom of God!"

Lately I have been really thinking on this parable, and the whole idea of the rich and heaven. It's really hard to imagine Jesus coming up to you and telling you this, I mean what would you do? Would you sell everything that you had and give up your life to follow Him? I know back then it was probably a little easier to do this, because he was a tangible thing that you could walk and talk with. Now its so different because he isn't standing in front of you saying this to you, but does that mean you shouldn't do it?

As we are about to move in about a month, I look around at our small little apartment, and see so much stuff that I haven't used or even touched since we moved in almost 2 and a half years ago! So now I am in the process of De-cluttering my life and really just making it more simple from clothes to pots and pans to furniture. I honestly feel better knowing I am going to have less stuff crowding my life and stuff that I am attached to. Its like a spring cleaning for the soul.

Which brings me to what we did last night. So Brandon has been on this kick of wanting to go to Dallas and set up and feed some people. I have been really reluctant to go and do this, because I didn't know what to expect, and because I didn't really think anyone would come eat with us. So last night at about ten he drags me to Deep Ellum with a van full of hot dogs, cokes, chips, cookies and a table and chairs. I was really dreading it, and I hate to admit that, but I was. So we get there, and we park and we see a girl and a guy looking for some food, and we tell them we have some hot dogs if they want some. Well pretty soon Charlie and Reese are sitting with us at the table enjoying some good food and great conversation. We ended up feeding probably about 8 or 9 people, some who stayed for food and conversation, and others who had to be on their way. It was such a great experience, and really filled my heart with so much love that I can't even describe it. These people were so gracious and so giving, even though they had nothing, that I can't even describe it. We spend 3 or 4 hours just hanging out with people, and honestly it was one of the least awkward conversations I have had in a long time. They were just so happy to be alive and eating that they were filled with joy!

We are planning to do this every week, and I am so excited to make new friends, and to really touch peoples lives with just some food and conversation. If anyone is interested in going, please load up in the van and come with! It is one of the most rewarding things, and I think you really see the Lord at work!

Searching for Gold instead of Wheat

2010-03-29T08:41:00.000-07:00

So, this morning has been kind of a weird one. Not weird in a bad way but in a good way, like everything kind of connected. Brandon and I were having a conversation last night about what he wants to do with his life and how we want to live. I have a hard time not having things planned out, so when he says I will figure it out, it makes me super nervous. I want him to know exactly what he is going to do, when he will do it and how he will. But see, he doesn't work that way and never will, which is fine, but I just have to learn how to handle it and trust that he knows what will come next.

I went to the coffee haus this morning on my way to work, and had a little bit of quiet time there before I left. I was reading about conformity in the bible, and how as Christians, we should not conform to this world. How if we are friends with the world, we are enemies of God, because God hates the world. So really, Brandon has everything figured out way more than I do, because he doesn't worry about worldly things such as money and jobs, while I do. I know I shouldn't worry about those things, because God will lead us and take care of us no matter what. I also read James 4:14 which says What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Pretty much don't plan for tomorrow, because you don't know what tomorrow holds. Don't plan on the things you will do in the years to come, but rather what the Lord will lead you to do in the years to come. Its crazy to think of things like this, but it makes so much sense because really what if you are gone tomorrow? All of your planning is useless.

So then the second part of my morning is Brandon calling me with a sort of light bulb moment. He called to tell me that he doesn't want to search for wheat in this life but instead search for gold. Like how I will be a teach, its not because of the wheat, like money, summers off and so forth, but its for the gold, the helping of people. He wants to find something that he does for the gold and not the wheat. Its weird how when he put it like that, it eased my mind, and made me more comfortable. I know that he wants to play music for the right reasons, and not for the wheat. He wants to reach people with his music and his talents, just like I do with mine.

So in this life, I am going to try and not to conform to this world, because it doesn't lead anywhere. I am also going to try to follow the right path and not the path of the wicked. I will also try to humble myself before the Lord, because he will lift me up. I want to seek Gold in this life, not wheat, which fades.

Life.... ever fleeting

2010-03-27T08:08:00.000-07:00

One of the most valuable and fleeting things is life. How can you be here one minute and gone the next? Do we take this precious thing for granted? Do we think we are indestructible? Like nothing can or will happen to us? Do we think nothing will happen to our loved ones? Why do we continue to live like we are going to be here for an eternity? What if you don't wake up tomorrow? What if someone decides to end your life tonight? Have we said everything we need to say to our loved ones? Have we taken them for granted? Have we taken life for granted? What would you say to them if you were on the verge of death? What would you want them to know? If you died today would your life be fulfilled? Have you done everything that you have wanted to do? Have you lived your life to the fullest? Have you loved, smiled, sang, danced everyday?? Or have you sat behind your desk everyday counting down the hours and hoping that tomorrow is better?

Dream as if you will live forever. Live as if you will die today. James Dean

I have been searching and searching lately for the meaning of my life, and the way that I should go. But, as I am searching, I am wasting my precious life looking for something I may never find, or accomplish. I will not live forever, and with every passing year, I am getting older. I want to do so many things! I have so many dreams and ideas in my head, but yet I am standing still.... WHY??? So does this mean to make a "bucket list?" Does it mean to mark off things one by one? Or do I just need to wake up everyday and do something that is scary and risky? At what point in time are you completely 100% satisfied with your life?

So I know this is all a little heavy for so early on a saturday morning, but it all started last night. A friend of mine went to a local bar last night, and I don't know the specifics, but he was held and robbed at gunpoint. He is my age, and has so much life ahead of him. He is safe, but its just that it is a really scary thing, and I cant imagine how he is feeling. I am so thankful that he is ok, and that he is alive to enjoy the day. It just sucks that sometimes life has a funny way of waking you up. Its like life just happens and sometimes its not the best but at the end of the day everything will be ok.

Its just goes to show, that it is time to wake up and live this life to the fullest! Don't delay and say tomorrow will be better, because what if tomorrow never comes. Then what??

TIME

2010-03-24T11:06:00.001-07:00

Why is it that no one has enough time? Is it we don’t have enough time or is it we don’t use our time wisely? I know we wait until work is over and want time to go quickly but why? We are just counting down the hours, minutes and seconds. Are we going to count our lives away? Why do we count down our life? Our life is meant to be great and exciting! We are supposed to savor every moment! You know seize the day! Why don’t we do that? I know everyday I sit at work and wait for the day to be done, only to do what? Waste more time on the Internet, watching TV or just wasting time. Shouldn’t we be doing something that makes life better where we don’t have to count down the hours? Why are we on Earth anyway? What exactly did God put us on the Earth for? I know it’s not to sit around counting down our lives. I also know its not to be miserable working the 9-5 everyday and hating life! We are here to walk in his footsteps, and to spread the Word, and to reach out to our brothers. So why do we focus on worldly things? It says in Romans 12:2 “Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” So why do we sit here and focus on working to make more money to buy more THINGS??? Why do we want money, cars, houses and material things? Where is it going to get us? Is it going to make us happy? Is it going to make our job better? Is it going to make us count down the workday any less? So then the question is, will we be happier if we quite our horrible job and sell all of our possessions? Is this the thing that needs to be done to really enjoy this life and enjoy the Earth and enjoy what God has created for us? So should we be poor and follow Jesus and just be missionaries to our brothers? Will that help? I know the bible says to not follow the flesh, or desires of this world. But where does that lead us? Do people who make a lot of money feel better? Do they conform to this world? Do they help out their brothers? Pink Floyd said it best:Money get away, Get a job with more pay, and you’re O.K.

So all of this has come about because work is really getting to me. Something I use to enjoy and love spending time at is no longer fun. Its no longer rewarding and I dread the day, and count down the hours. So then what do I do? Quit and hope to get another job? Or just wait it out?

Sickness

2010-01-28T14:36:00.000-08:00

So I am now on official day 4 of going vegan.... well kinda. I had a minor problem last night with taco bell! They made me my bean and rice burrito with a jalapeno sauce that was made of mayo. Stupid! but that's ok no big deal, everything else has been so far so good. I thought that it would be harder than it is, but it hasn't really been that bad. The most challenging thing is of course trying to eat out at a modern day restaurant because there is butter on EVERYTHING!!!!! This is why I love Thai food there isn't any hidden ingredients!

So I am a little stopped up and feeling a little under the weather. It could be from a few things.... First off Brandon was sick for about two weeks. Second lots of change in the weather here lately. Third it could be my body detoxing from meat and dairy, in which you have similar symptoms. Weird??? Or it could just be everything! haha I watched Oprah yesterday and she had a whole show on foods you should put in your body. I thought it was great, and justified even more what I was already thinking! I really have enjoyed planning and putting thought into everything thing I eat. I have already seen a difference, I have lost about 5 pounds already! I have also been trying to work out. I really enjoy running, and have just started running on a treadmill which is not as good but still good.

I only have 10 more days until my big test!!! I'm so nervous about it, but I have been studying! Hopefully I can do well and pass the first time! Which I will cause I'm smart and can do it! Just be praying and thinking good thoughts while I am taking it on Saturday the 6th at 2 pm!

Day: 1

2010-01-25T17:13:00.000-08:00

So today was the first official day of going vegan. It has gone pretty well, and I have not been hungry or too weak or anything! I started off with some apple cinnamon oatmeal I made from scratch and some coffee. For lunch I had some carrots and some beans and rice. Dinner, though was by far the BEST! I made jasmine rice, fried tofu and butternut squash, zucchini and sweet potatoes. It was pretty much amazing!

I am also going to try a yoga class in the morning at 5:30 AM!!! I have never done yoga, but have always been interested in it so I figure why not try it! Its an early class which means there wont be a ton of people to make fun of me! Haha I am so un-coordinated!

I am still studying for my TEXES exam, and getting more and more discouraged. I really need to think positively on this though, because its in two weeks, and I must pass it! Just pray I do well on it so that I don't have to take it again! My test is on February 6th and 2:00pm! PRAY ALL DAY! My superheroness to pass the texes exam!

Off to work out time!

It's that time again!

2010-01-24T14:05:00.000-08:00

So I know I am a terrible update blogger, so therefore I am going to really try this time. I have had a lot going on the past few months!!! I am so excited to share everything!

Two weeks ago I started a teacher certification course through Region XI in Fort Worth. Pretty much this program will prepare me to be a teacher by this next fall! I am so busy because there is so much work to be done for the program! I have an online class, an Integrated Field Experience course, a Harry Wong book study and the classes themselves to go to. I am also in the process of getting ready to start substitute teaching. I have never done this before, or been in charge of kids before, so hopefully all will go well. I am so excited to start this chapter of my life, because I am truly passionate about it. I don't think I have ever felt this way about anything! I am also in the process of finding out more about becoming bilingual in Spanish. I really want to be fluent, so that I can teach at a school that is bilingual, and also to learn more about their culture and eventually travel and teach English. I just find the Spanish culture one of the most interesting, and I love the people I meet! I have my TEXES test on February 6th. This is the test that determines whether or not I can be a teacher. I have to pass it with an 80% or higher! So please please please be praying I pass it the first time!!!!

Another thing going on in my life is I am working out again. I worked out a total of 5 days last week! I really enjoy working out, and would like to keep doing so! It makes me feel and look great! I also packed on a few pounds from eating too badly at Christmas and just in general.

I am also reading a book called The Kind Diet by Alicia Silverstone. It is pretty much about going Vegan and then giving up all processed foods and all sugars. I find this very very interesting, because I have always wondered about health risks of eating or not eating meat. The way she describes everything is great! Like she puts it in terms that anyone can understand. It just makes me so excited to actually try and see what that kind of life could be like! So starting tomorrow I am going vegan for the next 4 weeks. That means no meat, dairy or any animal products. I want to do it not only for the animals but also for all the amazing health benefits. They say vegans have a lower body weight, better immune system and are at a lower risk for heart disease and cancer! Sounds win win to me! I will update daily to tell you how it is going. I am sure it is going to be hard because I have never done anything like this before! So we'll see how it goes!

I hope you enjoy this beautiful day outside! Check out the kind life website for more info on the book and what I am about to start doing! thekindlife.com

Tibet and bike rides

2009-09-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

So I know weird title but thats what my life has consisted of the past few days. I have been reading "In Exile from the Land of Snows" which is a book about Tibet during the 14th Dali Lama and the invasion of China. I watched 7 years in Tibet last night and had already checked this book out from the library. I haven't gotten into the book yet enough to know exactly what has happened in Tibet but I do know that millions have died and that they have lost over 6000 monasteries. The more I know the more I will pass on!

Today is such a beautiful day! I woke up this morning and walked Jack to a nearby park and we sat for a minute then walked back. Its been so nice lately! I also rode to the Bicentennial Park in Pantego today which is about 3 miles away and I just sat there and ate a sandwhich and spent about 30 minutes in prayer! It was amazing! I am just so thankful for the life I have.

I dont have too much to say today mostly because I havent been doing very much lately. Enjoy this wonderful day!

Wasting Time

2009-08-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

Lately I have noticed that I waste a lot of time on the internet. There is so much to do and learn on the internet yet I waste my time on Facebook and Myspace. I recently got rid of my iphone so that I would stop wasting time on it, and now I have replaced it with the computer. I could be doing so many other things with my time but it like sucks you in. its weird yet true and everyone does it.

I was reading the Come and Live blog one day and he said something that made a lot of sense. He made a list of the things that make him think of getting closer to God and a list of things that draw him away from God. I really liked that idea and all the things he wrote really made sense.

Things that are distracting:
Myspace
Facebook
Television
Looking for a VW Bus
Sleepiness
Eating

Things that are good:
Drinking Coffee and having some time in the morning
Walking and praying
Beautiful Mornings and sitting in the park
Riding my bike

Why is it so hard to stop looking at the internet for one minute and picking up the bible? I think its because I am just consumed with people and their lives. I know its sad but its true. Its kind of like when you are little and you are playing with your friends but you are really hungry and you want to eat but you are just too busy doing something else. I do that a lot especially at work I'll get busy doing something and wont take the time to slow down and eat or slow down and relax.

I went to the park this morning to walk my dog and have a little quiet time and it was absolutely amazing! The weather is great outside today! I was actually a little too cool whenever the wind would blow. I love days like today, they make me a little sad because I always think of Boise and how I would love to be there! I know its a little lame but I feel that that is where I should be, and hopefully one day I will be! The picture is of the Hyde Park district of Boise Idaho. You know you wanna go!

I am very thankful that in 3 weeks we will be hitting the road for our glorious 10 day vacation all around Colorado! We are driving up there and literally going through the whole state! I havent had a vacation in a while so I am super excited and very thankful for going. We have saved a good amount of money to have a great time!

Well time to put down the computer and pick up a book! Enjoy the beautiful day that the Lord has made!

Soon I'll be a daily blogger...

2009-08-29T20:11:00.000-07:00

So I haven't blogged in nearly a year I guess so I think its about that time to start blogging again. So as you can tell the Boise thing did not work out. It is currently on hold until our economy gets better, so hopefully one day we will get to go there. It is still like the greatest place ever to me, and I would be totally happy moving there and seeing what would be in store for us there. Not too much has really changed since I have stopped blogging so I will just get right into what I really wanna talk about.

This summer Brandon went on tour for about a month with the band that he is currently in called The Captive. While he was gone I decided to do a little soul searching since I had plenty of time. I know that if you know me you will know that I was raised in church and have always believed in God, but I dont think I ever fully understood what it meant to be a follower of Christ until this summer. I have never been one to totally dive in and give myself fully to God, mostly because I think I was always too scared too. Which it still is pretty scary to think about especially when you read the bible and Jesus is talking about Letting the dead bury their own, and leaving everything you have taking nothing with you not even saying good bye to your family. So I have been trying to read as much as possible and listen as much as possible to hear the Lord in my life and figure out just what I am suppose to do here on this earth. Its a little scary sometimes, and not always what you want but I think thats just how it goes.

I have read some really good books which I would recommend such as Crazy Love by Chan.. Sorry cant remember his first name. But anyways that was the first book I read and mostly what it talks about is not being a lukewarm christian and how God will spit you out. I felt pretty guilty reading this book but its totally worth it. I also read the Shack which is a little far fetched but I really enjoyed it. I am currently reading the Irresistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne, who by the way is an amazing person and has started an amazing organization in Philly called the Simple Way.

I just really want to strive to be more christ like and less like me I guess because I find myself judging gossiping and doing a lot of the things I would like to stop doing. I especially want to be able to love everyone the way God tells us too, especially since I work at the mall. haha

I think thats about all I have for right now..

Boise......Yes thats in Idaho

2008-10-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

Well its official, we are moving to Boise! We will be moving either late February or in March sometime. I am so excited. Mostly because I get to stay with Industrial and because we get to move. I know that most people are like whats in Boise, well you just have to go and see for yourself!!! Its an amazing place and now that I will be there, come stay with me!!! I'm so excited about it! Please pray that brandon finds a job easily and that we find a good place to live! Also be praying that my responsibilities increase. I've heard that I will be northwest manager, but i'm not sure, but I really want to be. Just pray that everything goes well and that we have fun there and that we learn how to snowboard!!! haha!

New York New York

2008-08-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

So I know I am always changing my mind about where I want to go, but I'm feeling good about New York. I have wanted to live there since I was born pretty much!! I applied for a job with Roxy there, and I am super excited about it. I dont really know if I am qualified for it, but its worth a shot. I also just applied for a store management position for a company called Brooklyn Industries. It sounds super cool!!! I'm so excited about it! I really hope they call me and want to meet me and everything else!! Brandon is coming around to the NY thing so I hope it all goes well. I know that where ever we go, we have each other and thats all that matters. Keep us in your prayers! Think NEW YORK everyone!

Boise here we come!!! well kinda

2008-07-09T14:14:00.000-07:00

So we booked a trip to boise idaho, our future home, hopefully. We are going Sept. 18th through the 22nd. so everyone pray that everything goes as planned and we are safe and we have a wonderful time. If there are any suggestions on what to do there, please let us know. we hope to go and see where the best parts to live is and where the mall will be that the store will be in. we also hope to see what all is out there for jobs for my brandon. hopefully he can find something on such short notice. he is wanting to play drums for a church and also do some sort of web design graphic design also. he will probably be in between jobs here pretty soon, so please pray that he finds a good job here for now. please pray for us in general.

So what about....BOISE?

2008-07-02T07:55:00.000-07:00

So I've been thinking about Boise, ID because we are opening an Industrial there in March. I have been trying to convince Brandon to move to Boise. Well he has been against it for about two or three months now. Then on Sunday he goes, alright lets do it! I was like really?? OK! So I am in the running for the store in Boise! I'm so excited about it!! I really hope that I get it, because I really want it! We would be 15 minutes from snowboarding, 15 minutes from fly fishing and a couple of hours from some of the greatest National Parks there is. I'm so excited about it!!! It is going to be awesome if we get to go! It is also the safest city in the U.S. which is awesome because I am tired of the ghettoness. Just pray that we get it and that that is where God wants us to be!

New Lifestyle

2008-06-17T10:39:00.000-07:00

So lately I have been eating a lot healthier. I am now completely off caffeine and have been for about a week and a half now. I feel so much better with out it in my body. I also haven't taken any sort of pain medicine, i.e. motrin, excedrine, anything like that. I have also started eating a lot more fruits and vegetables. I eat only fruit for breakfast and a salad for lunch and then at dinner I eat a well balanced meal. I have given up chips, candy, cookies, coffee and many other things. It is really hard but it helps me build self-control.

Now that I have started with the body, I am going to the mind. I have started reading a lot. If you know me, I hate reading!! I have probably finished a total of three books my entire life! But as of two weeks ago, I have almost read two books. I recommend The Alchemist by Coelho. It is an amazing book! I am no reading The Power Zone by my preacher Dr. Larry Calvin. It tells you how to get in the Power Zone with God! It helps you open yourself up to the Lord and bring yourself happiness.

I will keep updating as I change my lifestyle for the better. I am contemplating being a vegetarian. I don't know if I can do that yet, but I'm thinking about it. I am also trying desperately to learn Spanish, so if anyone has any suggestions on how to learn it a little easier please fill me in.

Well have a blessed day